Dear Diary #35
This new moon, I'm calling back the magic and setting new intentions for my creative home. Inside: a creative reset with tarot, journaling, and room to imagine what's next.
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Hi, Iām Tass. I write about the delicious chaos of womanhood, and I use tarot to navigate the things that donāt seem to make any sense.
TOMORROW, Iāll join Pukhraj Ranjan live on Substack at 17:00! Weāll talk about following our curiosity to reshape our lives and how it led me to create a community and a new career for myself.
I reviewed my plans for this year and realized I havenāt been dreaming big or wanting things the way I used to. It felt unexpectedly sad. Iāve always thought of myself as a dreamerāsomeone who goes after what she wants and makes it happen. But instead of dreaming about a delicious life in a beautiful setting, I found myself praying for money.
As they always do, my tarot cards showed me the uncomfortable truth and cut through the bullshit. They never let me play the victim for too long. Iām in the driverās seat of my life and, within the playpen of my small privileges, I get to choose how I move through the world. Iām not trying to tear down the fence and start a revolution today, but I can keep hacking patriarchal rules here and there to live my best life.
When I was around eight years old, I believed I had magical powers. Whatever I said, the opposite would happen. If I wanted to go to the pool that weekend, Iād repeat to myself over and over: Weāre not going to the pool this weekend. Weāre not going to the pool this weekend. Weāre not going to the pool this weekend. Weāre not going to the pool this weekend.
God was funny, I thought. Because it always worked. I remember manifesting a tamagotchi, candies, sunny days, my mom arriving earlier, pizza and giggling at being secretly a witch.
New moon, new intentions
Not sure when I stopped doing my magic, but this new moon, Iām calling it back. I already cleared the path for my next steps as a writer and a tarot reader. I made space on my desk, my mind, my calendar and I learned itās my duty to prioritize what makes me feel in the mood to do what satisfies me.
If my creativity had a home, what would it look and feel like?
Iām taking this Cancer new moon as an invitation to plant the seeds for a new creative home where itās safe to express myself fully. A sacred space where I can unapologetically welcome my weirdness and whimsy without fear of judgment.
In this space, my writing and my tarot are free to be exactly what they want to be. New ideas greet old onesāand other peopleās ideas, too. They laugh, transform, and collaborate. This new home is bold and inspiring. I love its scent: sea salt in the morning, sweet vanilla in the afternoon.
Itās cozy, but it also reminds me to step outside, rest, and have fun. Itās open to other people, yet private enough for me to concentrate, dream, and sit quietly with my ideas. Everything I make here feels alive and moves people because itās rooted in love and curiosity.
In my creative home, magic becomes real.
12:43āNew Moon in Cancer š Tarot & Journal Prompts
A card for this new moon
Eight of Cups ā Your emotions need solitude before they can renew themselves. Notice what you notice. Whether youāre shedding old layers or simply pruning your garden, create a quiet space to make sure youāre leaving the right things behind before stepping into a new chapter.
The Cancer New Moon invites us to reflect on what home truly means and what genuinely nourishes us.
What kind of feeling I want to bring home? It can be your political home, creative home, social home, family home. Describe how you feel, remember moments that you felt similar and think of what you could invite into your life to create more of that feeling.
What part of myself is asking to be welcomed home? Is there a version of you youāve been hiding, silencing, or trying to outgrow? Write a letter inviting her backwith curiosity instead of judgment.
If my creativity had a home, what would it look and feel like? Imagine a space where your ideas, dreams, and weirdness are fully accepted. What would exist there? What would no longer be allowed inside?
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