Dear Diary is a monthly love letter to the mess and magic of relationships — with others, and with myself. I don’t have answers, just lots of questions, but I believe in connecting through words. That’s why I keep writing.
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Merry Christmas!
I celebrated Christmas on the 24th with my closest family circle. My mom, my sister, and I are basically one organism. We also welcomed a very close friend, and it was a perfect evening of laughter, warmth, and love.
I planned this evening during a mental health crisis a couple of months ago. I assumed I’d be deeply in my head, so I made the safest, softest plans possible. Jesus’ birthday can be a tough day even if you’re not Christian — it’s a family day, a day to be surrounded by people, to give and receive love. I genuinely thought it would be hard.
It wasn’t.
It was actually easy.
AT NOON
I went to the sauna and the pool, swam in ice-cold water, and ate a kuuma koira. Then, I headed home to get ready for Christmas Eve. I did, however, lose my own personal challenge of not shaving a single hair from my body while my husband is away. It’s almost 2026, and I still don’t feel comfortable walking around with hairy legs in public.
I hope your Christmas was — or will be — a delight. This time of year is for delight. For buying the things you want, or not buying anything at all. For opting out. For resting.
Just do you. You made it.
Merry Christmas, love.
My 13 Wishes Ritual
I wrote down 13 wishes, but I hesitated on the last piece of paper, which read “launch a podcast.” A dream that scares me because I have absolutely no idea how I’d fit that into my schedule, or how I could make it properly.
Then, a few minutes later, I received an email.
Because I love synchronicity (and mild chaos), I blindly added that 13th wish to the jar. And here are my wishes — or at least how I remember them:
✰ Launch a podcast
✰ Write a book manuscript
✰ Publish an essay in a famous publication (hello, Vogue Scandinavia)
✰ Get paid to write from a hotel
✰ Create my own journal notebook
✰ Finally publish my own tarot deck
✰ Go on a writing retreat
✰ Exercise once a week (I have a feeling this will be the final one, let you know later)
✰ Receive a writing grant
✰ Buy a car
✰ Reach 10k subscribers on Secret Club
✰ Read one book per week
✰ Get a big, chunky sum of money
Then I joined a Winter Solstice cacao ceremony, where we were asked to write 12 wishes. I wrote 12 brand-new intentions, all dedicated to my writing. They were more abstract, things like confidence, trusting my gut, and letting myself be seen (!!!).
When I got home, I didn’t know what to do with those papers. So I added them to the same jar. And now I’ve been burning two wishes every night.
Maybe I messed up the ritual. Maybe I didn’t.
I’ll let you know.
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